WAIT

Lately,im not myself. i wonderrr why? Nahhh,its just my feelings i guess. But yeahh,i've noticed i like to daydream a lot these days. SHIT,i hate life. I just wish that everything were back just like they were before. At some time i think that theres no point of living anymore. You're better off dead aliff. BIG DEAL,who cares anyway? Look,i have nothing in life. NO looks,NO body,NO money,NO nothing. I am what they call,a lame person. Maybe thats why im not successful in life. Maybe thats why people ran away from me. Maybe thats why girls played with me. Maybe thats why im nobody. Maybe thats why i should just die. Trust me,it sucks to be me. I've never been lucky in life,seriouslyy theres no luck in me. If you see me you should probably run as far as you can. -.- sometimes,shit happens to everyone. But shit happens to me like everytime. When is this going to stop? Maybe it wont. hmm,this sucks. Oay im done,byee.

The passion in my heart.

Well, hello there. its been a while huh? I was thinking of sharing whats on my mind right now so blogging would be perfecto! Lets talk about music shall we? For me,all i can say is that im universal. Yeahh,i listen mostly to all types of songs. Actually,im more of a hardcore person. yes,i do listen to this type of songs though i know people would think its nonsense listening to such genre of music. Its kinda cool actually for me,although you wont understand a single word when they scream and shout or whatever,but you should try it out first. It really is something new for you guys. Generally, we have like metal,metalcore,hardcore,post-hardcore,death metal,screamo and such. One thing in common about this unique genre is they like to scream. LOL. Sometimes,when i feel stressed or a bit down with life i'll turn up the volume and listen to it for hours and hours. pffftt,pathetic! But hey,sometimes i feel like joining them screaming like nobody's business and forget all those troubles i have in my mind. So awesome i tell you. Hmm,before i end this,here's a list of my all time favourite bands. ENJOY! :)

-Avenged Sevenfold-

-Trivium-

-Bullet for my valentine-

-As I Lay Dying-

-As Blood Runs Black-

-Mendeed-

-Amon Amarth-

-I killed the prom queen-

-All that remains-

-White chapel-

-Still Remains-

-All Shall Perish-

-August Burns Red-

-Protest the Hero-

-Atreyu-

-Bring me the horizon-

-Haste the Day-

-In Flames-

-Stone Sour-

-Killswitch Engage-

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Hellraiser C7 Schecter :)

Damn, i want this awesomely beautiful thing so bad! Unfortunately aliff,you have insufficient fund to buy one. HELP ME!!!! -.-

I promised myself.

Never should've let you go
Never found myself at home
Ever since that day that you walked
Right out the door

You were like my beating heart
That I, I can't control
Even though weve grown apart
My brain cant seem to let you go

Thinking back to the old times
When you kept me up late at night
We use to mess around
Laugh and play, fuss and fight

I guess its too late, Im dancing this dance alone
This chapters done, the story goes on

Since you've moved on
You took a piece of me give it back
So much pain in my chest
Blacking out, heart attack

Baby
Can't believe that you are not with me
'Cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free

But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you

In that wedding dress, dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress.

My Bella Luna :)

Mystery the moon
A hole in the sky
A supernatural nightlight
So full but often right
A pair of eyes a closing one
A chosen child in golden sun
A marble dog that chases cars
To farthest reaches of the beach and far beyond into the swimming sea of stars

The cosmic fish they love to kiss
They're giving birth to constellations
No riffs and oh no reservation
If they should fall you get a wish or dedication
May I suggest you get the best
For nothing less than you and I
Let's take a chance as this romance is rising over before we lose the lighting
Oh bella bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Do do do do do

You are an illuminating anchor
Of leagues to infinite number
Of crashing waves and breaking thunder
Tiding the ebb and flows of hunger
You're dancing naked there for me
You expose all memory
You make the most of boundary
You're the ghost of royalty imposing love
You are the queen and king combining everything
Intertwining like a ring around the finger, of a girl
I'm just a singer, you're the world
All I can bring ya
Is the language of a lover
Bella luna, my beautiful beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other

May I suggest you get the best
Of your wish may I insist
That no contest for little you or smaller I
A larger chance yet, but all them may lie
On the rise, on the brink of our lives
Bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Bella luna
My beautiful beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other, oh oh oh

Warmness on the soul.

Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make.
And that feeling of doubt, it's erased.
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side.
You're the one, and in you I confide more

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your love's always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

M.J.

You guys must be wondering what does M.J stands for right? Its Muhammad Joharee yo! What do you think of him when you see his picture? I'm thinking a weirdo maybe? hahah. but NO. He's more than that. And you guys would probably think am i gay putting a guy's picture on my own blog? HELLLLLL NOOO. The main reason is because he's a close friend of mine. Yes,he is like my own brother. I owe him,A LOT. He has helped me a lot throughout the years. I'll refer anything to him when i have something on my mind. when i first saw him,we were playing futsal but didn't actually talk to each other. I was amazed by his skills and all i tried learning from him. Then we became close and he taught me everything he knew. He even helped me when i have problems with my girl. he cheered me up and gave useful advices. He likes to talk to me mostly about life itself. He taught me how to dress up,be more matured and be independent.He literally changed my point of view towards the world and made me a better person. We always talk,laugh and party like nobody's business. It's fun hanging out with him and kinda cool when you actually really know him better in person.He's wacky,fun,cheerful,active,open-minded,and most importantly,CRAZY!! Hehehehe. But we do share a lot,mostly everything. Wow,how would i survive this world without you mate. You've been there when i needed you the most dude. I already think of you as my brother. cool, I LOVE YOU MAN! :))

Exam oh Exam! -.-

Yeahhh,its been a hell of a week form me. Its what you think it is,my midterm exam. pheww,i've been struggling these past few days and now i feel like a walking zombie. Lack of sleep,eat,hangout and i dont have time even for myself :( The papers were hard i tell you and on the first day of exam,i had an accident in the morning with my friend hafiz. We were on a motorcycle and im running late for my exam. He lost control and we both fell. There was a car right behind me when im on the ground. wow,close call huh? Hmm,i guess thats just about it. I'll update myb after im finished with my exams. Wish me luck guys! :)

Die Hard Fan

Brian Elwin Haner, Jr. (July 7, 1981), better known by his stage name Synyster Gates or simply Syn, is an American musician, best known for being the lead guitarist. Ahaa,the intro of my idol,my favourite guitarist. He has done many live performances around the world. And he is known for his solo's. Using his custom made guitar created only for him,he'll amaze you with the melody when his fingers strikes his guitar. I dreamed of playing like him which is i think that would be IMPOSSIBLE. It would take me years and years of practice. If i have one wish right,i would choose to see him face to face. Lots of love SYN. from your number 1 fan :D                                                                                                                                                   

Adios,friend :')

As you can see,its a futsal shoe. I have the same one just like in the picture and it was a birthday present. It couldnt get any better than this cause i do love futsal. But shit happens to everyone right? and yeahh,that includes me. The shoe is now gone. cause myb i played too rough with it. The sad part is that now i cant really do what i love the most not until i buy a new shoe which i dont know when will that be. HMMMM. But hey,look on the bright side. I learned a lot and gain lots of experience with this. Well,i do have other futsal shoes before this but this is the best so far. One of my favourites :) I took good care of you and you serve me well mate. Goodbye,till then. :')

HOYEAH!

Wow,i can't believe i'm actually doing this. yes this,BLOG-ing. Pfffttt,well i'm kinda new with this and im not really sure what to do. But hey,a close friend of mine introduced this to me and i find it interesting. And so,i was thinking why not? i should just give it a try,it wont kill me rightt? :D Before i end this,let me talk about myself. Aliff here,i'm soon to be 19. actually i dont look like one -.- whatever, but yeah i like to talk,laugh,cuddle, and bla bla blaa so on. To those who are close to me,they know excatly how i behave. HATERS can go dai! hehe. I guess this is just about it. I'll update soon and have a good day everyone! :)